notemySARCASM.

mood: SHITTY.

reflex action: F---- OFF, YOU B------.

cause: backstabbing b------.

message: thanks a lot, guys girls. you burn my whole day holidays up.
OH HOW I LOVE YOU :))

call me emo, call me acting bitchy.

call me whatever.

i don't care anymore.

i just don't.

you can step on my head once without being noticed.

or more

cause i pretend not to notice.

i'd rather be alone there from now on.

i don't need you anymore.

the both of you.

why?

cause i never needed you anyway.

cause i can survive on my own.

cause I HATE BACKSTABBERS.

ps: sarcastic is me, dear.

it's been like that forever.

so don't be surprised,

cause i'm never a good girl anyways.

BESTfriend.

second post of the day.


been thinking. bila tgk blog kwn2.. or fb or ms or fs or ntahapahapa dowg pny site tu lagikan; this thought hit me.

have i really got a bestfriend?

kwn y mcm..

always there 4 me;
y fhm apa y i am feeling,
knows when to and when not to;
what's lingering in my mind,
and other things that even i didn't know that is happening inside me.

yes, yes, i know i said before that i do have bestfriends. but bestfriends as in kawan. tp as in sahabat...?

i look to the front. i see nobody. nobody's there in my view. i was like, uh, i'm fine w/ this. this's common to me. but then i realize that i am not fine with this. i need a shoulder to lean to, a hand to slip mine into when i'm walking.

just when the tears brim in my eyes; when my vision blurrs, i feel a soft tap on my shoulder.

there she stands, just right beside me, there all along, when i was hoping for sumthg from far away, for the impossible to come to me.

how could i not realize her presence all these while?

a smile came into my face again as she smiled at me. then i put my hands up and said with a very dramatic voice: "kurang bijak ko kaytee. xreti beri salamke haa?? sapa ngajo ko duk sbla org diam2 then tpuk bahu dia tiba2 haa?? xsemenggah pny prngai! sebek me xde resdung skt jntung. kalu x, ngn ko2 skalik ikut me masuk kbur mlm ni taw!" and a slow, but firm sekeh landed on her head. ahahaha.

----->finish<-------

eh td 2 agak nak kidding kidding je. huhuhu. td g jenjalan ngn kaytee. round2 tesco. mlake sentral skalik sbb n mls nak g mp. lgpn ktorg kuar dlm kul 5 gitu. nakena blk b4 mghrib lg~ so situ jela y smpt we lawati. ngehehe.

• so-called survey broadband pdhl da de 1.
• tgk2 lptp lg... then bazirkan duet tuk kek secret recipe pdhl kat uma da mmg taw de lauk tuk buka. whoaahahahaha.
• bli tket tuk blik perlis 31hb t. but goshh, lpe plak bli tket tuk raya t. haishh.
• window shopping weh! pkara wjib stiap wanita tuh, agagagagagaga XDD

see, kaytee xd plak kate my driving skill "...mmbhyakan nywa org len." or "...agak berisikolah." ...lepak je dia me tgk? bole je ktowg enjoy lyn lgu tvxq! otw g n blik td. huhuhu.

and we did a lot of... err, let's just say interesting things together in this short span of holidays. sekepala, yes? ahahaha. sndrik pn fenin ble pk blik apa y ktowg da wat slme ni. huhuhu.

i love you so much, kaytee. so very much you'll never know how much, and you'll drown in it if you know just how much i love you! thnx 4 all the silent support dear^^



ps: you're the best sister one can ever have... err, maybelah kot. ngehehehe. 사랑해요.

ouhhHAPPYday

basically been typing 4 the whole day. darn how all the schoolworks wear my fingers out. sebek mmg interested dgn english language ni. huhuhu :))

oh yeah, semalam did a marathon phone call XDD gosh how i miss those guys! they rock the world so much, i can assure u that^^ haishh... wish i can see them in the nearest time. that's the usage of the unused-matric-timetable-placed-behind-the-matric's-matrix-card, guys ;p ngehehehe. believe it or not, i bring it all the time in my purse! desperate much? nope. i take it as i love my friends so much and i don't wanna disturb them at the wrong time. seriously. haha. and so the turn goes like this:

mira-nana-teha-najaa-mira-nana-mira-aziz-dila-umi-mira-fared-mira-aziz-fakhri

erkk... yeke? tahla. sort oflah. kalu da rmi sgt cmtu mana bole nak igt lgkan?? kan? kan??? huhuhu. i was, like, smiling from ear to ear after hanging up. for the whole effing day. (skg ni pn still tgh gak actuallynya) danggg~ da macam orang gila tgh angaulah pulak. angau dkt rmi org. muahaha. tahapahapa je. whatever.

tp apa nak kisahkan? i love all of my friends; that's all. am still insane what? so apa slhnya snym sorang2? xdosa pn, dpt phla lg. bulan puasa pulak tu, phla dilipat-kali-gandakan.

amboi, bab nak bela diri suma okay. muahahaha.

ouhh. need a haircut. tp suma kata xpayah. aishh. xmnyokong btullah dowg ni suma. hehe.

next topic. omo xlh smbg lg~ nakena beli tiket tuk balik perlis. the looooong trip. sigh. smpi kbas2 kaki n punggung duk lama2. ngeheheheh. dala me friends lpe nak blikn skalik 4 me masa dowg bli tiket. (T^T) apala nsib. boohooo.

our gerko is going 4 a trip; and we're going fishin, snorkelin n flyin fox maybe! woots for the TESLian koku club! yaay! hehehe.

really gottago, see ya later guys!

XOXO! ^^

SKYWAYavenue

tag from miss arina :)) malas nak c&p instructions dia, hehehe. so yeah,
here i go.

If someone says ‘Are you okay’ you say?
Good Girl (Fly To The Sky) - oh. me like it when people care about me. i feel touched~ at least i know that i'm not that invisible :)

How would you describe yourself?
눈물아 미안해 [My Tears, I'm Sorry] (Fly To The Sky) - *garu-garu dagu yang xgatal* hmm ini agak sukar ya. okay, i hate crying but once i cry, i can't stop. so yeah, 눈물아 미안해~~

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Hug (TVXQ) - sumpah playlist ni nak kenakan saya! i'm not that kinda person ohh!! DDX ngee~~

How do you feel today?
Ketika Ini (Estranged) - muahaha. padan muka dikau wahai sang soalan. agaknya playlistku sudah bertaubat dan mahu berbakti kepadaku pula lalu dia kenakan kau pula :DD

What is your life’s purpose?
A Song Calling For You (SS501) - apakahh??? macamlah me is gatal sangatt!!!! ini ada unsur2 diskriminasi ni~~ kau durhaka kepadaku lagi wahai playlistku!!!

What’s your motto?
Sorry, Sorry (Super Junior) - ya, kita perlu berani minta maaf apabila ada buat salah ya... even i don't have the slightest idea of the connection between motto and this title. *nods*

What do your friends think about you?
Cinta Antara Kita (Duta ft. Baizura Kahar) - oh i just love you, dearest playlist^^♥♥♥ moga2 benarlah hendaknya ngehehehe.

What do your parents think about you?
Purple Line (TVXQ) - wtf??!

What do you think about very often?
Tomorrow (Hwanhee) - oh yeah. daku sering terfikir tentang esok. betul, tak tipu punya. *muka serious*

What is 2 + 2?
Dear God (Avenged Sevenfold) - macam kurang bijak sangat pulaklah bunyiknya. huuu. sungguh, walaupun i hate maths, tapi saya taw jwpn y sbnrnya! i'm not that dumb! (T^T)

What do you think of your best friend?
Bila Terasa Rindu (Dafi) - oh, ini lagu mira n nana dedicated to me when i was leaving matric. now i miss them like hell. *sobs*

What is your life story?
Famous Last Words (My Chemical Romance) - yeah, me and perpisahan is inseparable. seriously. macam taw2 je menatang komputer ni. *sigh*

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Silly God Disco (the GazettE) - makk sumpah tanak jadi menda alah tu~~~! >.<"

What do you think when you see the person you like?
Miracle (Super Junior) - errr. sungguhlah playlist ni nak wat me macam orang gatal. huuu.

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Sunny (Super Junior) - adakah ini kerana hari perkahwinanku nanti adalah hari yang bahagia buatku ataupun playlistku hanya mahu mengambil hatiku sahaja ya? wocheh ayat skema xmenahan ;p

What will they play at your funeral?
Check Yes Juliet (We The Kings) - *blinks* CHECK YES MARIAM yang sebenarnya tu. i da lepas giliran hidup di dunia waktu tu, so that's why dia check yes nama juliet mariam kot. huisk.

What is your hobby / interest?
Are You A Good Girl (TVXQ) - ramai orang kata i'm a good girl. so that means my hobby berpurak2 jd budak baik mjadik. ahahaha. hakikatnya tidak. mariam budak nakal. betul. jahat pun ada gak kdg2. *grins*

What is your biggest fear?
Deja Vu (SS501) - betul tu; i hate that feeling. makes me so nervous, it sure did.

What is your biggest secret?
Wrong Number (TVXQ) - *grins*

What do you want right now?
You & I (Super Junior) - sungguhlah playlist ni... *carik2 butang uninstall programs* XDD

What do you think of your friends?
Gee (SNSD) - haha. ada kaitan ada kaitan. kwn2 y bek, mlyn, observant and share secrets bout ehem ehem. ekekekeke. xp

What will you post this as?
Skyway Avenue (We The Kings) - wheee! gle best tajuk dia! athirah introdeced me this song! imy so much all of a sudden, athirah! which leads to qisti; and arina too! :))




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oh ya. puasa best.
duk uma best.
dpt contact (most of) my friends best.
men pet society kat fb pun best^^
baca novels; both english n malay pun best gakk ((:

y xbestnya i dunno when to stop surfing da net DD:
or when to seriously start doing the holidays' group assignments DDX

ps: 7 more days to go. hurry plan the plan, guys! our time is running out~~ :x

yoEVERYBODY!

borak2 dengan aina.
dalam bas :))
nak balik melaka.

ouh yeahh.
bas oh bas, cepatlah kamu sampai ke melaka~~!
ngehehe <3<3

and oh, happy fasting everyone!
puasa penuh ya? ;p *grins* XOXO

ps: doakan kitorang selamat sampai ya :)
pps: sedih xdpt sahur ngan family. sahur dlm bas je... huuu. macamlah slame ni sahur pn. muahaha.

ATTENTION ALL:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAHAI UMMIKU!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU ALWAYS!!!!♥♥♥♥

FRIDAYpleasecomefast!

brr.. brrr.. (hp vibrate de meset masuk hehehe)

dia: hello mrs lovett ;p
me: pulakk?? apekehalnya ko ttbe pggl ak mrs lovett ni? tade pna2nya ak bunuh mana2 insan y ta bdosa tuk wat pies?
dia: saje2 je. mood tgh upplah beb. ngahaha.
me: oh, mood tgh uppp.... so wassup ttbe je msg ak ni?
dia: tade papepn nk ckp.. actnya saje je nk gtaw mood ak tgh bek skg ni. k la ak nk g mndi ni. daa~ ahahahahaha :DD

ahh. masalah tul kanak2 zaman skarang ni. ta faham aku.



....


dearest time,

please fly so fast cause i can't wait for friday to come :))
cause basically i live for friday to come right now.

eventhough i can't wait to go to school on monday, i know i won't be able to focus in class.
sorry in advance dearest lecturers ;P





ps: zura dearest imy all of a sudden ;'((

meiMEI<33

mei mei: jie jie, how come you're here?

me: err.. i walked here?

mei mei: no lah, i mean aren't you supposed to be in your room? cause you're sick, right?

me: ah, yes. *nods* but i don't wanna miss too many classeslah mei mei. i missed a lot already.

mei mei: but you're sick... *thinks* and you may make us sick too. *grins*

me: ah, yes... *blinks*

mei mei-ah. why so cute? XDD and then in english description(?) class kamal went "eh mariam? kau datang harini??" dengan muka terkejut tahap xleh blah. chait. sengal pnya KK. punyalah da 2 jam kamek duduk kat klas tu siap sempat mencapub lagik baru dia perasan my presence there? then dia dok perhati lagi sblom... "weh, kau dah kuruslah."

punat bom telah ditriggered.

wah, terasa seolah-olah ringan sahaja tangan saya hendak mencampak telefon bimbit yang berada di dalam genggaman tangan saya ke arah beliau ketika itu. huuuhuuhu. baru dua hari tak datang kelas da nampak bezake? KURUS pulak tu? tongeng ya beliau itu. penipu tikus ya amat DX kurang asam je mamat tuh. ngeee. nak nyindirlah tu. huuu.

where are you, KI?

you're nowhere to be seen today.

i missed not seeing you today ;p

ps: i miss going to classes.

pps: emma n ida, i miss going to your room too XDD hehehe.

:DD

"I don't give a damn 'bout how you speak; be it wrong in the sense of language, in everything, as long as we understand each other clearly. Literature itself kicks grammar out in the butt, and yet it can still be so famous even after hundreds of years passes by."

- Sir Norasmadi Norasim; English Literature lecture

cause this made my day when i was just about to break down. ilu so much, sir. lols XDD
and would ya stop hurting me heart, you idiot?

ohWEE.

it's hard to say how i've been doing right now.

i was am having a fever right now. and sore throat too. like, really really sore i can be part of the bass line in the choir. whenever i laugh, there's this weird sound coming out from, uh, nowhere? lols even i dunno where does it comes from ;pp it sounds like, uhm... like i'm-suffocating-thingy kinda sound. which makes me friends worried. and ask me to go to the doctor ASAP. which, i kindly refused. ngehehehe XDD

i hate don't really favour seeing doctors. not that they're bad or anything like that. it's just... them me. yeah, i'm weird. that's just me. weird. hahaha. but not that weird, okay? not like certain people... anyways, back to the story. xsuka pergi jmpa doktor sebab nanti dia bagi ubat pastu kena makan pastu nanti ngantuk pastu t xdapat nak fokus dalam kelas. huuu. banyaklah me pnya alasan. ckp jelah takut malas nak makan ubat. hakhakhak ;P

just now ummi called. scolded me for being a lazy bum 8D yup, me ish lazy. malas nak gi klinik. ahakhakhakhakhak. ayah pun da scold ptg td. whoaa. anak durhakakah saya ini? huuuu.

hello, KI<33

you make me happy everyday^^

thanks for making my darkest times nowadays brighter.

i owe you big time; you're the best, bester, and even bestest!!!

muahxxx~~!

i know, i know. gruel grammatical mistakes, no? XDD

but it doesn't matter anymore dear :))

does it, at this kind of time?

NON-STOPlist.

MENGANTUK.

assignments yang danak kena hanta esok. nak beli t-shirt science subject. new hp casing. miss my friends and family. kaytee, contact me ASAP! urusan agreement maktab. duit buku. elaun yang semakin surut. too many annoying calls and messages. piling up guilt. nak bagi ke tak nak? ngehehehe. sukasukasuka! ;PP senaman pagi kul 6.30 esok. kelab wataniah or kelab kembara? simpan or forget?

KESIMPULANNYA?

siapkan assignments dulu. tidur. yang lain-lain fikir esok. muahahahahah XDDD

toodles all^^