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hmm. best gak jadik first batch y amek course nih :DD lecture busy memanjang; mggu ni suma english lecturer g kursus and whee~ my major is english! XDD

act xde mnde nak cakap, cause i'm just feeling empty right now. terberjangkit penyakit homesick daripada kawan y homesick lepas balik uma mggu lepas. haha klaka je slama ni xpernah2 homesick skrg ni baru tetibe ngengada nak homesick. ;p mentang-mentanglah MACAM dah duk jauh... hek3.

tgh dlm usaha decorate board kat bilik ni. hehehe. t tgkla hasilnya... msti korg jeles tgk. hehehe. n ehem ehem, nak jugak cakap benda ni walau dah berzaman lepas....

happy belated birthday dearest kyu~~!^^ moga sentiasa berada dalam lembayung rahmatNya :)) anda tua sudah ;P ngehehehehehe. sorry for the latelatelate wish -_-" asyik late wish je me ni... cam orang jahat y jenis xingat kawan plak rasanya. huuuu.

warning.GILERPANJANG.

oh whee. finally.

connection kat sini cam chipsmore (T^T) dahlah time weekdays je ada,, weekend... mimpi sepanjang harilah kamu kalu nak dapat. huuu.

anyways. perlis is... hot. ahaks, seriously panas dekat sini. i'm just here for a week and i'm already tanner darker blacker than when i was spending my whole weeks running on the field during my school days. T_________T remind me to buy sunblock :p y klakanya seniors dkt sini semua cakap new students dari johor, melaka dan y seangkatan dengannya mmg akan menggelap disini... di samping mengatakan xthn panas. ahahahaha, sebaek. at first i thought it's because ramadhan is approaching tp knpa yerk panasnya len je... or it's just me y mengada xthn panas. ngehehehehe.

ouh. teringat satu peristiwa. seriously tersangat amat giler bapak bengang tahap supreme dengan this one person. it seems like he really hates my friend and kept saying bad things bout him. i couldn't take it i... idk, maki marah dia the way i've never been mad at any of my friends? i mean, come onlah. kalu ko xsuka sgt dgn dia, go face-to-facelah. don't be such a coward, a sissy, a pengecut. you said those things to the wrong personlah. i love my friend, that particular friend the way he really is. seriously i adore our friendship very much i couldn't take the things he kept saying bout the other him. now i have to reconsider to even pretend that i've ever known you in my life. gaaah. seriously annoying.

marah. sakit hati. bengang. upset. disappointed. gile xleh blah my anger dekat mamat tu sampai campak hp dari hujung bilik sampai danak terkeluar g koridor. habis pecah cover hp y xsmpi sehari beli... huuuu :'(( ouh umi taw ni mati me ouhh. sampai roommate pun scra tiba2 je dengan sopannya mintak izin keluar bilik sambil letak mende alah tu atas meja sblom lari2 kluar bilik. ngee~~ suri roommate, xberniat pn nak bwat smpi anda jd cmtu. huuu.

hmm. it seems like i'm never lucky in friendship anyways. friends drifting apart... dah boleh dikatakan regular for me even sblm 2 diorang ya ya ckp this and that? idk, sometimes it feels like i'm the only one struggling to run after them to keep our relationships alive.

ps: dear you, i'm still waiting for you to keep the promise you gave me that nite.

and oh, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DYLL!!!! sorry i was so busy i didn't have the chance to contact you and with the bad connection here and things... just know that i love you so very much^^ you're 18 now dear! a year older, a year wiser! love you, muahh! but still, i hate you for your post the other day... *sulks* ngehehehehehe. ;D

rightNOW.

If you could be invisible for one day, what would you do?

↘ run away from here, go back to where i belong ...i belong to nowhere so i guess to where the people i love are, watch them being happy without me all day long and cry next to them, near their shoulders knowing that my absence really does have no effects on their lives without them ever knowing that i'm there... at that very moment.

DANG.

and why am i that supremely, extremely, super duper uber unbelievably stupid to believe in all those nonsense crap shits????!

reminiscingMEMORIES.

cause i just freaking miss dayana and this lovely day is just unforgettable^^ semua chegu yang kitorang kami (ehehehe dayana future chegu BM jangan marah ngan ketidakbagusan bahasa saya ea?) jumpa cakap:

• eh, dah jadi anak dara dah diorang ni... *erkk? abis tu sblom ni kitorang ni apa chegu???*
• dah makin cantik dah diorang ni suma bila da abis skola. *dulu baju suma sama, chegu... suma org tade beza pn. putih je kaler baju... kain biru kasut itam. td bju msing2 nak wane-wani. mmgla nmpk meriah. ngehehehe.*
• welcome to the club :D *what club? purak-purak tarak tahu. hekhekhek*

hahaha. kelakarnya. ouh penat penat. tp bila fikir maktab asyik terfikir matrik je. bunyik danak-danak samakan... huhuu. sedih datang balik. i can't believe i left that awesome place. akan datang balik bila ada masa yah? tu pun kalu ada orang yang sudi nak terima my visit therelah... huuu.

theTABLE?

here's the list of the things i miss doing everyday right now. tanak baca pun takpe, ni tuk tatapan peribadi. hehehe.

1. wake up early in the morning to find roommates still asleep.
2. sambung tidur lagi 5-10 minit.
3. wake up again.
4. take my bath after sitting half-conscious in bed for another 5 minutes.
5. kacau-kacau roommates suruh bangun XD
6. subuh prayer.
7. iron baju sambil makan roti n dengar mp3. (hey, i'm a multi-task person meh)
8. check semua buku yang diperlukan tuk lectures and classes hari tu ada ke tak.
9. borak-borak dengan roommates to kill the time. kalau ada kuiz baca notes^^ gelak-gelak bagai nak mati hekhekhek
10. omg da lambat kena siap cepat!
11. lari-lari anak pergi kelas. tipu je, jalan cepat ya. kita kena kejar masa... *straight face*
12. tunggu chegu sampai, borak-borak dengan kawan; kalu hari isnin semak report betulke tak report yang dibuat :P
13. lectures and classes.
14. lunch, zohor prayer.
15. kalu rehat lama; try amik quick nap - selalu end up xdapat n btambah ngantuk or penat. *sigh*
16. siap-siap nak g class lagi :
17. lari weh lari dah lambat lagi ngeeeeeee~~ selalu sampai lambat time2 camni. *shakes head*
18. lecture/class lagi.
19. yawn~ yawn~ da petang ssh sket nak fokus. hihihi ;))
20. seret kaki balik bilik........
21. asar prayer.
22. lepak-lepak, borak2 ngan roommates. gelak sampai tduduk atas lantai takleh nak bangun ngehehehe =D
23. menyesal gelak byk2. orang kata t hilang ilmu. sedut balik ilmu y da ilang sbb gelak td.
24. mandi. busuk sudah badan :S
25. maghrib sudah. apalagi? solatlah.
26. .........kalu rajin g makan.
27. kalu malas mkn roti jek hekhekhek :D pastu solat isya'.
29. wat tutorial sket... baca notes balik sket... kemas nota sket... cakap banyak.
30. YAWN.
31. minum kopi, kaco ekin nak study tuk ilangkan ngantok. (act mmg suka minum kopi smpi ekin kata: "eii yam, ko nikan, cam orang tualah. suka sangat minum kopi. xelok sgtlah minum kopi ni." ) me balas: "sukatilah, maya karin kata nescafe ni byk antioksidan apa? byk mcm kat dalam buah lagi tu." pastu t ekin wat muka bengkek je sambil berlalu pergi................. -_-"
32. ekin da titun. kaco tikot plak ;D
33. tikot marah kaco dia. kena halau balik tempat sendrik.
34. ngantok. tikot da tdo. nak kaco sapa lg?
35. ngantuuuuuk. tp kije blambak lg nih. cemana ni???
36. NGANTUKKK TAHAP YA RABBI!!!!
37. tgk jam. da 3++. halallah tu ehk, tomorrow never dies.
38. tapi kalu me yang mati tomorrow cemana? erkk??
39. tawakal jelah. bismikallahumma ahya wa amut....
40. syahid hingga ke pagi.

pastu repeat balik dari no 1. ahahaha. will my timetable there be the same with the one i had here? i guess the answer is a no... i'm gonna miss this hectic, packed timetable for sure.

ngantuk sudahlah. mau titun. nite morning everyody, sleep tight! ^^, daa~~

gaaAH.

why yes,

happiness never liked me anyway.

h2P1.

it all happened so fast.
one day i was there hoping that i wasn't;
and the next day i'm here hoping that i'm there.

life is unpredictable.
first i hated being there, starting with zero but then little by little i started enjoying my life; my very minutes and seconds there.
i forgotten about the plan i made; i took everything, you can almost say, by granted.

then the time came.
just when we are getting closer, when we're bonding with each other, decision-day stood right in front of my face, urging me to choose the best out of two choises.

my heart and brain argued.
and my eyes became the victim.

alas, the mighty brain won the war.
so things started to get harder by time.

i kept getting this cold treatment. till one day we spilled everything out.
i've never been in this kind of situation before.
i've just meet them, and now i'm leaving them... but the pain feels as if i've known them forever.

what am i supposed to say?
mianhaeyo?

mianhaeyo?

mianhaeyo?

for befriending them only to leave them later on?

i didn't want things to happen this way either.
i'm gonna miss them all so much...!

can all of you not forget me please?